COS的秘密花园: September, 2006

September 10

this morning I woke up

staring at my window

my brain refuses to get up

I feel thirsty

from my tongue,

my teeth to every single cell of my body

something is missing

I can feel it

I lost my tears, lost my pain

I lost my shyness,lost my scream

I lost my hate,lost my desair

I lost my momery, lost my smile

I lost my flowers

I lost my bird

I lost my cat

and finally,

I lost my little girl

how many times do people pray for being a grow-up

and how many times they pray to get it back

when I get out of my bed

open my window

I start to feel warm

all the shadows fade away

then everything goes round and round again

I have nothing ,to complain no more

about the world

people wear the same face doing the same thing

people killed themself for can't get things they desire

but maybe not for they have nothing to desire

the process of death is long enough to regret

those feelins are gone

I've lost them

but now

I can't lose my voice,

lose my hands

to rescue myself from being a living dead

to continue my story

about

wot,have I lost

ps:I love you, mum and dad.I have nothing left besides things I got from you,I take nothing for granted but your love.